first and never again

Context: My ex boyfriend cheated many times and yet he was the one to lock me up and treat me as if I am the one who betrayed him.

My so called ex boyfriend and I have been living in the same roof for almost 1 year already. He has no work, no side hustle or anything, umaasa lang siya sa mama niya all the time. Oh God believe me, I know deep in my heart that I should have left him a long time ago. He has no plans or ambitions either, all he could do is just lie and wait for his mama. In short, a fucking mama’s boy. The only thing that is holding me na wag mag let go is utang na loob sakanya and sa mama niya. When I was in my darkest and zero days, his mother treated me as her own.

The first time he cheated was the time when he had sex with his ex while we were together. Hindi ko alam yan, recently ko lang nalaman galing sa pinsan niya. Tinago NILA sakin kasi baka masaktan daw ako. Second, nakipagkita siya sa isang nursing student, hid it from me, ofc I found out. Third to Fifth time was this February 2026. Caught him using bumble and other dating apps. Unang babae na nakausap niya sa IG was a minor, second was 19 (inaya niya sleep over, nagpapasend ng nude pics and such) third is yung sinusuyo niya ako yet I still found out he was still using bumble and talking to other women. And I thank God those women was super honest to me, they told me all the things he had done to them.

Now, siya pa yung kumukulong sakin. Ayaw niya ako mag work, ayaw niya ako makita na ngumingiti sa phone kahit nanonood lang ako ng reels, ayaw niya ako nakikitang nakikipag usap sa kung sino sino even friends, nilalayo niya ako sa lahat.

And now, I am packing my things up. Ready to leave him right away this time. Hindi ako aasenso kung kasama ko pa rin siya, masyadong mataas ang ambisyon at pangarap ko para lang hilahin niya ako pababa.