Am I missing something?

hi reddit !!!!!

I apologize if this post isn’t very organized or sounds stupid and whiny im really writing it on a whim,, and i have a feeling ill regret it - anyhowww

Im 18 and im in my freshman year of college, and it seems like no matter what I do I have terrible luck with guys. My friends tell me that I’m pretty— even though I don’t really see it all the time. I wonder a lot if my looks are the issue. I had a really toxic and emotionally abusive relationship with my ex that lasted about 8 or so months and the way that it ended was really jarring for me. It seemed like one day we were okay and planning to hang out and the next it was over. I find myself in that predicament a lot nowadays. I was talking to a guy who was in the military for almost three months- and then one day he also just up and decided to stop talking to me. No explanation, just stonewall and ignoring out of nowhere. I’m not even really sure what I’m asking, I guess maybe how to talk to guys and keep them interested in me? What’s wrong with me that people just decide im not good enough one day and that’s it? I’m really sorry about how sloppy this post was, I am just overly emotional in bed unable to sleep despite having class in the morning ! I just want to know what guys actually want to hear, my dating life has been a general shitshow and it’s taking an honest toll on my fragile self esteem apparently lmao

Thank you so much to anyone who reads all of this, the purest of love to you reddit !