How would you describe the first month off meth and stimulants?

I relapsed. It was around 70 days mark and relapsed. I'm now 8 days clean. I actually think I fell better right now at 8 days than I was around 70 days, because each relapse to me taught me something new.

Last relapse taught me something too. I did something different than before, it makes life feel much better.

But I don't know though, when I was around 70 days clean, it felt much worse than I had been at the first two weeks. I don't know if this time I would also feel worse when times go by.

By the way, we don't have AA or NA in my country, 12 steps program is non-existed, but I found a local non-profit group promoting sexual health for gay men, they're hosting meetings dealing with meth use, I signed and got a slot! I hope this works, it would be my first time joining meetings, not sure what would I do next if this turns out not helpful though...