i can't be the only one hellishly terrified about dying to a blood clot, right??

please tell me it's not just me. i don't even know whether to call it a phobia because i don't know if it's justifiable as an irrational fear or not.

my case is mild compared to a lot of others here, but combined with my other disabilities i'm still considerably bedbound. i'm only 24, i have no blood or clotting disorders. no drugs i take that increase my risk...

i'm absolutely mortified about severe blood clots. i can't handle it when people TALK about them, even!

it gives me an awful case of dread.

i'm posting this now because i felt a weird pop in my good leg when i bent my knee, and now i'm HORRIFIED of getting up out of bed. i'm hoping i forget about this eventually so i can get up and go about my business... but i can't be the only one scared over this due to how little i'm up and about, right?? right???