i want opposite gender friend or a companion or a partner so bad

i’m so tired of being alone it actually hurts sometimes. it feels so empty not having someone to rely on and not having a person to reach for at the end of the day. i want to rant about my day and have someone listen like it matters, like i matter.

i don’t want to be lusted after. i don’t want to be a body or a phase or an ego boost like I've always been. i want to be loved softly and intentionally. i want forehead kisses and random “i’m proud of you” messages. i want someone who notices when my voice sounds off. i want to feel safe enough to be dramatic, emotional, messy, and still be adored.

i want good morning texts that aren’t just routine but genuine. i want someone to hold my hand in public and not hesitate. i want to feel chosen every single day, not almost chosen. i’m tired of pretending i’m strong and independent 24x7 when some nights i just want to be held and told everything’s going to be okay.