The forgiveness of being forgotten

Im so sorry.

I'm not strong. Or brave. I betrayed myself and in so doing betrayed everyone who loved and cared about me.

Im not good enough to continue on in your lives. Im getting weaker and weaker with each passing day. My mind shattered and ruined forever. My body constantly sick. Its hard to hold q job when youre waking up puking and coughing up blood every morning.

I told you i loved you and then immediately burned my entire life down. I think thats the closest I could come to saying goidbye. I just wanted you to know how uniquely incredible you are. A truly beautiful person inside and out.

Im so sorry. Ive tried to keep away because I know it hurt to see me or be around me. I cant stand feeling like an unwelcome burden. I hope you werent troubled by my rants on here. Just screaming into the void as my mental state deteriorates. I didnt want to actually bother you but I can piece together you probably found my old account. Im sorry, i thought it was all anonymous.

You changed my life for the better, even if its a last ray of sunshine before i disappear.

Thank you so much for giving me a brief taste of light.