Getting abused is the fate I carry in my life

So, I was heavily abued at my parents home. Mother did from getting beaen with bruises in her ded body. I feel like I relived through everything what she has been through. I came out of that house. Have a life that I dreamed of. I thought it's over. But sometimes I can't help but think, is it really over? People like me who were abused in the past ends up with toxic partner. That is my biggest fear, ending up with someone like my father. So, I have an aunt who interfears in everything. Sometimes it almost feels like harrasment. Like as if I am burden. But why am I burden? Like afno kharcha mailey sabei afei behoreko xu. Mero afnei life xa haina? It's like somehow I end up with the same dynamic cycle of abuse. Not with 1 home, but different environment same people in different skin. Ailey chei she has been inspecting a guy for my marriage. Meanwhile I have clearly declined my desire to get married. Why is it like obligation? Like can I not be enough on my own? Like almost fated to be abused. like I know it's not true but I feel like yo life aba kei time samma ko lagi matra xa and I will be back to abuse again. it was only to show hope in me. I swear if I need to be with someone forcefully, I shall kll myself without notice. I have been through a lot to have this life. Some people feels so entitled to make each and every decisions in our life.