Is it necessary to clear neet in one go

Its gonna be my first attempt and i really wanna score well, get a good rank and give my best and all..
But at the back of my mind I feel like I don't wanna go to college just now...
I'm scared of college ofc but also cuz I am not that much self dependent yet
The first time I went to buy samosa from nearby shop was when I was 18.🫠🫠
I wanna learn how to ride scooty, I wanna go to shopping and eating alone a few times. Meet my friends more, watch a movie on my own, learn some extra hobby (like some musical instrument) cuz genuinely if I wasn't decent in studies i definitely would have been a gone case cuz I literally don't have any materialistic talent.
And I wanna become a veterinary so I wanna research more about that. I wanna visit libraries, read books and novels.

So I thought that if I don't qualify this year,(I hope I do but still) i believe it won't be that bad cuz then I'll get to do all this stuff...

Ik it'll be hard watching my friends get on with their lives (they're better in studies than me so I believe they gonna qualify)
But i think I can handle it

Is it wrong to think so? I'm not that bad at studies so I think that if not this year then the next one I'll crack it(don't wanna sound overconfident)

So is it really bad to take one drop and feel ok about it???