Terrified to try for a third time.

I had two miscarriages in four months. Absolutely horrible and traumatic... obviously. The first was a "natural" miscarriage and the second I opted for a D&C. After the last one, I went through alllll of the blood tests and all of the stuff to see if something was genetically wrong. Nothing at all was.

I'm 35 (about to be 36) so I feel like there is a HUGE rush to get pregnant and actually have a baby before I'm too ancient.

I am about to ovulate again for the first time since the second loss and I'm panicked thinking about going through all of this again. I want to try but still don't want to at the same time.

I don't know. I just needed to rant. I hate this all.