Sounds like a cliche but this community has awakened something in me.

This...all probably sounds kind of lame or whatever, but I feel like I'm going to go crazy if I don't get it off my chest. I'm male, just turned 39 years old recently. I've had, frankly, extremely little romantic and sexual experience. There's a number of reasons for that, but at least partially it's because of my plain old nerves. My ADHD definitely came bundled with RSD (Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria) and it's a bitch. Anyway, for a long time I just kind of... accepted that, but as I've gotten older it's started to bother me a bit.

Anyway, that's probably all a side trail. I've been spending time online kind of exploring what I want, and I stumbled across this sub, and holy shit. Everything here, the videos, the stories... I've never encountered porn/erotica before where my reaction was so strong. It's not "that's hot", it's "I want that".

I guess, as background, the general idea of femdom dynamics has fascinated me for a long time, but I definitely had a very warped idea of what it was. Seeing this, gentle and loving women just taking control... God, that just sounds so amazing.

I'll be honest, actually doing anything in real life is going to be a seriously huge step for me, and if it happens at all it's probably going to take time. But, if nothing else, this has given me some really great fantasies to indulge. Thank you, all of you. I know this was a little rambling, sorry about that, but I actually already feel a bit better just from putting it in words.