Found out my Ex had an abortion and the baby was mine.

3 months ago me and my ex had a mutual break up. We ended that relationship cause her family couldn't accept and the reason was she is newar and I belong to madheshi community.

One month prior to our break up we had unprotected sex and apparently condom's are 98% safe only. When she found out she was pregnant, she told her sister and her fiancé. Apparently her fiancé is an understanding guy and they aborted it.

She's getting married and it's an arranged marriage. Aja chai she called me and said can we meet?

Suru ma I was aali skeptical and thought we shouldn't meet but then something in me said, let's meet ek patak Lai, so I went there to see her.

Teti Bela she said that she aborted the baby and that she's getting married next week. Although I'm happy for her.

But but this weird feeling is stuck with me, it was my baby as well, I would have accepted it if she wanted to abort but khai k ho, I felt like I should be there for her when she was going through that phase

I feel so shit right now, I don't know k garnu, I'm just staring at the wall and trying to accept everything.

[ TLDR: ex had an abortion and I felt like I should have been there for her]