Insight on what I'm experiencing?

So for preface, I am a 24-year-old gay man, and for the past few years, I have been really struggling with TMJ issues, which have made my whole body tense and feel off balance. Recently, I discovered somatic yoga and fascia release, which is said to help release tension in the body by releasing stored emotions. I started doing it hoping it would calm my nervous system and calm the tension, not really believing the stored emotions aspect, but boy, does it really work.

About a week ago, I became very hypersexual and had this feeling of intense dread inside of me, which was something I haven't felt since I was a kid. I acted on my impulses and sent n*des online, which is something I try not to act on, as I know I am meant to be a loverboy and not put myself out there so easily. Later that evening, I saw a clip from the show Heated Rivalry, which immediately sent me into a deep emotional state, and it dawned on me in that moment that I was never shown the love I needed in life, and how I feel the need to be promiscuous and overly sexual to feel wanted. This sent me spiraling into what I can only describe as an ego death. I began to look back on my entire life, realizing how my sense of loneliness really stems from the fact that I refuse to be vulnerable with others or trust anyone. When I start to feel vulnerable, I tend to become avoidant, and my brain tells me the person is going to hurt me.

For the past week, my brain has been re-processing my entire life, and I have released so many feelings of shame, anger, and sadness. It has really thrown me off in my daily life, but I'm starting to get back on track now. The weird part about this situation is that while all of this has been happening, I have also felt an overwhelming sense of calmness, and I'm not as irritable as I was before. I have confidence in myself, and I feel safe in my body. I have this feeling like everything is going to start working out now. While I am certain of this, I also have this feeling I haven't experienced yet in life, which is like a painful yearning deep inside for a certain somebody, but I do not know who. I try not to let it bother me, but it keeps sneaking up throughout the day. I know I need to focus on self-love at the moment but this feeling can be overbearing at times. I have been waking up a lot at night and feeling intense heartache. It is a really strange feeling because it's almost as if I am depressed, but I am still very motivated and keep myself busy and feel completely content. It is just when the feelings of longing/yearning come up that I feel an intense sadness that pains me to my core.

Does anyone have experience with anything like this?? Is this still repressed emotion being released? Any insight is appreciated :)