Advice, anything at this point

23, engaged in a country away from family & our own pets.

I am extremely depressed, particularly supported by my financial situation.

I owe a ridiculous amount of money

$17,000 to F&F

$25,000 personal loan

Earning a little under $6,000 and rent being over 30% of that monthly.

This feels like a never ending loop, I struggle with addiction, gambling & drug, although I am currently sober from drugs.

I currently just see no alternative outcome, I don’t know how to come

Up with the money owed.

I’m afraid to tell my fiancce & family as they’ve already helped me immensely but of course, leaving them is my only concern about this all. I don’t want to hurt them.