Can this love be translated/ childhood trauma

I’ve got childhood trauma and can really relate to cha muhee/ dorami. Fear of being loved because you’ve been denied by your parents at a young age.

Learning that kindness and love comes at a cost and it’s circumstantial. Feeling like you’re not worthy of love etc .

I’ve even had a 7 year relationship with a man exactly like hoojin . He was kind and understanding and loved me despite my bpd

Anyone else that’s been through similar experiences feel really Understood?