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Has anyone watch a sad movie to mask their pain? This isn't just a break up. Heartache I cpukd never imagined to be this painful. 3months 8days in, I still can't sleep, i still can't find joy in music, or find my love for food. How do we make so much sense & we aren't together? I love you & it feels like a betrayal having to live without you. The future plans we had, you were the only person that I wanted a family with. We even named our daughter, if we ever had one. Turning 34 made me realise that I don't want a kid unless it was yours. You to be by my side to raise our precious Alyssa. Fucking feels like a fucking joke now. I don't know how I'll heal but I will. I will forever love you.