Are these feelings normal? Please I would like to hear your opinions

When I avoid any kind of PMO, the following emotions constantly come to me.

● I feel extremely angry at my failures. I regret my past decisions which have led me to this situation. I attribute most of my failures to the constant need of sexual pleasure. I think about where could I have been if I fought harder against my internal enemy which has been swallowing me whole for like 8 years now. I get angry that I struggle to this day. I get extremely angry that I have kept this addiction this long. I get angry at my inability to say no and stay committed. I hate the fact that I always give in easily. I can only go for 1 week. I have been fighting this addiction since 2024. My longest streak is 21 or 22 days. And the worst part is I ware off my anger on social media. I hate the fact that I could be working and studying hard but I'm not. I get extremely frustrated knowing that I had used the opportunities in my life I would have had an advanced life and prevented many of my problems. I try to stay hopeful, optimistic, positive but I am truly not progressing. I am always back to zero.

● Other times I feel lonely and lack intimacy. I'm just thirsty for physical connection.

These two deep emotions are the constant drainage of my energy and cause of my relapse. Always.

Is it normal