I found old skinny pics

I’ve been in the start of a relapse for about 6 weeks or so now. I’ve seen a drop of about >!15lbs!< in that time and just the other day I was going through my Snapchat memories. I NEVER use Snapchat anymore, but I got a notification about a memory and that was it. I was hooked. Every body pic I was keeping lives in there. I never kept them in my regular photos because too many people go in there, but who randomly looks through your Snapchat photos at 21 years old? It was my perfect secret. So secret, that I forgot about it myself and now I’m full on trigged. I found a photo of myself that I didn’t remember existed. I didn’t think my body could ever look the way it does in this picture and now that I’ve been reminded, it’s all I want. It’s all I’m thinking about. I’m about to move states, so my therapist and I are going to part ways, but I know she’s noticed the changes in me and my weight loss. I know she’s noticing things but with me moving, it’s just feeding my ED’s idea that we can get away with it longer. I want help but the voice is way louder telling me to keep going.