i was so detemined to end it but

i was planning this for 2 weeks and today was going to be the day but now my mom comes up hugs me and im feeling hesitated all of a sudden and the relief that came up with the thought of not existing is turning into sadness by the second i made this plan actually 1 year ago but didnt have the courage and i still had hope but now i dont have any and im also hesitating just because mom hugged me for 2 seconds what am i going to do?