40F: My Secret Life as a Homewrecker

I never thought of myself as the homewrecker type, but here I am. I'm a 40-year-old mom, and I've been having an affair with a married man for the past year. There's something about the thrill of sneaking around and keeping our secret that turns me on. I know it's wrong, but I can't help myself. I'm addicted to the rush. I'm not proud of what I'm doing, but I can't seem to stop. I'm not looking for anyone to judge me, but I needed to get this off my chest. Maybe one day I'll find the strength to end things and be a better person. But for now, I'm trapped in this dangerous game.