My fantasies…

MF___, I’m 60, married, straight, white, 6’ / 190 lbs, clean and regularly manscaped, living in St. Louis. I’ve been looking for a patient teacher with similar physical characteristics… Age can be less, preferably 45 Ish or older.

Background - as I’ve gotten older I feel this overwhelming and compelling desire to be with a man. To give myself to him, hoping that he is attracted enough to me, to choose me. Not just to get off. There’s something inside me that is telling me to learn how to serve and worship a man so that he is attracted to me & chooses me.

1. I want to learn how to suck cock. I want to be really good at it! Something tells me this is what I’m supposed to be doing.

I want to know what it’s like to feel a hard, veiny cock, sliding in and out of my mouth, across my lips. I want to know what it feels like to have my tongue explore the shaft, the tip, his balls. When he starts to leak, I want to know what that tastes like. I want to hold his cock in my hand and trace the head of it my lips like Chapstick. I want to learn what he likes. I want to know what it’s like to have a hard cock deep in my mouth. And then I want to feel him getting more and more excited so that he explodes, pulsing, and pumping his cum inside my mouth…down my throat into my tummy.

What will that taste like?

Will it be thick, or runny, or?

How much will there be?

Whoever this man is, whatever we’re having unexperienced like this, I believe it’s my job too. Make sure that before we leave and separate, that his balls are completely drained!!!! it all belongs inside of me. Isn’t that what I’m supposed to be doing? I want to be chosen to be this person for somebody.

2. i’m a tell her to be a good bottom. I’ve been playing with toys in my ass for well over a decade. There’s just nothing like that full feeling. But 3 things are missing: It’s not a cock, whenever I’m finished, there’s no cum in my ass, and there’s no feeling of submissiveness or being chosen.

I need all three of these things. Don’t ask me why or how but I think this is something else and I’m supposed to be doing.

I want to know what it’s like when a man’s or a cock enters my ass for the first time. The sloshy sounds of lube and his cock pushing and out. I want to experience that full, feeling that you can only get by being filled with a cock. Perhaps it grows inside me a little bit more. I want to feel chosen this way. And then when he is closed, I want to feel his body tense up against mine. I want to feel him explode, pumping and pushing cum deeply as he can in my ass while I am squeezing this balls to milk every last drop out. I want to be chosen this way.

And just like number one above, before we separate from our experience, I think it’s my job, my duty to make sure his balls are totally straight inside of me somewhere. My mouth, stomach has wherever he wants. Just as he is drained. Isn’t that what I’m supposed to do?

3. This might be pretty far reaching, but I have a fantasy about being chosen by several, many men at the same time in a free use spit roast or a gangbang. I imagine something like that last longer than a couple of hours. That would be my hope anyway. In my mind, I imagine the excitement and eagerness as I prep and take a shower. I think about what it would be like for me to enter a room, I know why I’m there. They all know why I am there. I want to be chosen for something like that. I want to be with a group like that, them having their hands on me, every single one of them wanting to cum inside me somewhere.

Just like above, I would not want that kind of experience to end until everyone and I mean everyone is completely drained inside of me. That is a must. I’d Love to get really good at that, maybe that becomes some sort of regular and every couple of weeks with the same group. I don’t know. Just the thought of having load after load after load of cum in my tummy and ass… I don’t know. It’s just what I think I’m supposed to do once I get good at the other two things.