Picking compulsion is out of hand resources needed badly

Hello. I am coming here because I am blund and trying to find what I need by myself is really hard and I’m bad at using the internet. This is so menarrasing I wish I could post of a throw away but you can’t do that in this sub so yea.. please don’t judge me I am going through a lot in my life right now.My entire life since I was a little girl I have been a picker. My mom took me to the doctor because my favorite pick is my scalp and as a black girl she would do my hair and notice huge bloody scabs Anne he was like idk stress spots why are you stressed little girl? I have mainly picked my scalp my whole life as a compulsion to stress it’s legit involuntary at this point and people try and remind me to stop because I will go at my head for hours and ruminate if no one stopped me I’m in a flow state at that point. My ocd was somewhat managed for a while and the picking was just a small kinda bothersome thing that was mostly a nonissue for me just painful? But at this point life events have made my ocd debilitating where obsessions/compulsions take up like 8 hours of my day now and with the involuntary picking being a thing It ramped up a lot. I didn’t really notice how frequent I was picking but everyone else did. They would constantly tell me to stop and like scold me for it which fair. But the urge to pick and that reeling was still there. Now more context. A while ago I was sleeping on the couch with my bf and I fell off and I hit my heaand got a bloody nose. This led to a scab I could feel it every time I would breath. I know I hate where this is going too. I just slowly started to 50/50 my picking habits which is genuinely causing me damage snd pain and I can’t stop and I have asked everyone in real life for help which was so fucking embarrassing yo say hey I can’t stop picking my nose and they were just like that’s crazy, I’m looking online for something to help me stop picking I’m in therapy and I told her too but I have like much bigger fish to fry if that makes any sen. someone please help I am so desperate and embarrassed I just want to heal. I gave to get surgery soon and it’s so embarrassing to think of them seeing my bloody scabbed nose I want to stop but it’s literally involuntary most times I need a physical stop for now until I can genuinely work through whatever needs to be done .