My subconscious mind is a disaster, please help!!!!

Hi everyone, I need your help about subliminals and general manifestation, I almost know how subliminals work but I can't understand why I am not getting or far worse the same person when I'm listening to subliminals each week or month or when I'm going to street to impress my friends or me, I was listening subliminals since 2020 and I didn't get results when I was researching about law of attraction or subliminals, but I was listen different submakers like opia, v1per, Kottie, Moza morph, their custom requests and overall boosters like Istakid MOAB and Concordia, I mean, it applies the same situation at my reality when I'm trying listening subliminals and trying to not obsessing, getting negative thoughts, but it costs to me, keeping my desires on my mindset in bucle when I'm seeing external circumstances or situations that makes me disappointed about my progress with subliminals, like my senses, people and my own subconscious, I feel every of that is playing with me, and its incredible how are there people on this community have achieved incredible results except me, believe it or not, Im living of a scepticism and resistance at my desires, because I was researching in how to get results and I can't find a minimal answer in how to get results at the first listen and not needed to detachment, listening boosters, Self concept subs and visualization or any LOA technique, everything of that, it requires a time, I don't know why am i assuming it takes time if it's faster easy and effortless, to me it's headache listening (example self love), waiting a minimal 15 days and For that? To not feel nothing and wanted to search other submakers and waiting other weeks to manifest, I've seriously troubled being inconsistent and inpatient with subs why I feel lazy to manifest them?, and coming back to struggling with subs,I was losing my hopes to solve my problem with my subconscious mind and I know it's not magic pills, but I just wanna be honest, I want that YouTube or SoundCloud subliminals and always work to my subconscious, but unfortunately I never get results with past subliminals during on my subliminal progress, and liked to manifest things like a Carbon Copy face, Greek god body, hunter eyes and kind of masculine pretty Boy (yes I'm male) I would like to know what can you recommend me? Or how can I manifest correctly? sorry my bad english, I'm trying to write in a translator, I'm mexican