The reason I'm disrespected.

When I was teenager, and early 20's, I was so disrespected by others. At that time, I wondered why I was so disrespected. Sometimes, it was my fault and sometimes, there was no reason.

One thing I realized too lately was I was so incapable person and had no abilities. I wasn't good at everything eventhough I tried. I tried to become a clown I thought that was the only way to make someone change the perspective on me but, at the end of the day, it didn't change anything.

Now, I just think I was born in a wrong way. It's not like born different. In the first place, I hated how alone I was but, I realized a while ago that I was at least so peaceful and happier when I was alone.

If I knew that from many many years ago, I would do better for myself and wouldn't think too much what others think of me.

I still hear some voices tells me how loser I am and I'm just like the bad loser guy in the tv show I watch consistently.

I will get disrespect and I'm honestly too tired of care about it.