Blasting 500mg of Test made me realize my genetics are actually just garbage

I always told myself the only reason I didn’t look like the guys on Instagram was because I was natural. Well I’m 12 weeks into 500mg of Test E a week. For context, I'm 25, 5'10", and went from a lean 175lbs to 195lbs on this blast. My diet is completely dialed in, I haven't missed a single workout, and my sleep is perfect. And I just look like a slightly puffier version of my natural self. The strength went up, yeah, but the aesthetic just isn't there. It’s a bitter pill to swallow when you realize the drugs aren't for everyone and your muscle insertions are just fundamentally trash. Kind of a depressing reality check that is discouraging for someone on their first real cycle but it is what it is i guess.