I don't know if i can do this life anymore😁

I hate talking about my problems to anyone, but right now i need to vent sorry...

So my life is not that bad. I have people who i can talk about anything, but some reason i can't.

I have one good friend, but she always seem so bored when we hang out... And with her other friend she laughs a lot and seem happier😞 Im just so afraid of losing her..

My parents drinking issue (alcohol) is worse now. Before my dad was the one who was drinking too much.. But now my mom has been drinking more too.. One time i was visiting their home and tried to help dad with food and then he just yelled at me and said mean things... Then i just left and went to my room. I tried to not cry, but i then i did... Dad said hes sorry.. But inside me i started hating him more...

Lately im so tired all the time & get annoyed so easily... And have started to think ways to end my life... Sorry for venting