Am I a red flag?

I know I’m overthinking a lot lately… but please hear me out. So there’s this one girl in my college. I like her a lot, like a lot.. I’ve been crazy about her for the last 4–5 months. All my friends keep telling me not to get this obsessed with her. They think I’ll go mad if she rejects me or something

Honestly, I don’t care about that… but I am overthinking a lot lately. And by a lot, I mean A LOT. I don’t even know how to overcome this..

Let me tell you something about my past. I was once in a so called “online relationship 🤡”. I was so immature back then, yaar. I still can’t believe I fell for that online relationship thing😭 It’s not even a relationship; it’s just a delusional situationship.. It failed really badly. Even after it ended, I kept trying to extend it for another 4–5 months (overall it dragged on for like 8–9 months) I was such an idiot back then... I believed that a person should have only one relationship in their entire life, online or offline, so I kept trying to make it work. Even though I knew she was a huge red flag. She broke up saying “gharwale nahi maanenge”, and I know yaarr, it was just an excuse..

Now I keep thinking, what would my crush think if I tell her all this? Would she judge me? She has been single since birth, and I’ve already been in a relationship 😭

I’m also thinking of blocking all my female friends.. I know it's not a good thing to do. Only one of them is actually a good friend, and it would definitely hurt her. She knows everything about me, and I know everything about her. But I don’t want my crush to think I’m a red flag. I like her sooooo much yaar 😭

Pagal mat samjhna plsss😔🙏🏻

TL;DR: Will my crush judge me for my past “online relationship”? Should I block all my female friends to avoid being judged by my crush?