[B4T] A love born out of a shared tragedy (long term, literary writing style)

Hey there, guys! So lately I’ve been wanting to roleplay a story steeped in drama and tragedy, and I think I came up with the perfect idea for it. The premise centers on two men who have always thought of themselves as straight, whose lives were comfortably defined until the sudden death of a third person who was dear to them both changes everything. I’m thinking that third guy could be my character’s older brother, not just a family member, but someone with whom he shares history, sibling rivalries, unfinished arguments and a lifetime of memories. The same guy could have been your character’s best friend: his shadow, his other half in so many ways. In the aftermath of the shared loss, grief keeps pulling them back towards each other, creating a bond that turns to love. Dark, I know, but I feel we could build a very rich and fulfilling story around the concept.

I want to explore denial in a way that feels real and messy: the insistence that it’s just grief, just loneliness, just confusion. The guilt of wanting someone who feels tied to the brother’s/best friend’s memory. The fear of what it would mean to admit that this connection runs deeper than friendship. This will be slow-burn in the truest sense: almost-confessions, moments of vulnerability that frighten them as much as they comfort.

Needless to say, as I’ve mentioned in the title, the idea is for this to be a long-term narrative, so we can really explore the development of these characters as they navigate a very troubled growing affection. But, for this, I’d like us to postpone actual sex as much as possible so both characters are almost at a breaking point when it comes to happen. Of course, postponing sex does not at all mean postponing the inclusion of our kinks, and I feel this could be filled with very erotic scenes from which the characters emerge ever crazier about each other given the denial of the consummation of their affection.

Finally, if I haven’t yet made it clear, I must say I am looking for dominant partners who are thoughtful multi-paragraph writers. If you fit the description, I believe we can have a lot of fun together. Beforehand, though, I’d like to warn you I’m not into blood, gore, vore, bestiality, ageplay or other extreme sexual preferences, and those are hard limits of mine. Except for those, I must say I’d be happy to include any kinks you'd like to add here, as well as to discuss this in further detail. As for my own kinks, they are many and varied, but body worship, masculinity and slow burn romance are a must in all of my stories.

P.S. even if it's been a while since I've posted this, please don't hesitate to contact me.