Why It Happens With Everyone

You said: “I feel like I’m killing myself with everybody I meet.”

That line matters.

This pattern usually forms when affection feels safe only while the person is physically present. Once they leave, your brain cannot hold onto the feeling that they still care when you can’t see them.

So your mind creates control through imagination:
If you assume betrayal early, you don’t get blindsided later.

Your thoughts aren’t random jealousy.
They’re protective forecasting.

Your mind is trying to prevent:
surprise hurt.

Unfortunately, the protection creates the pain.