Need some advice

I am 14 biological male, i wanted to transition because my current body doesn't feel like myself. Idk how to say it but being a boy feels wrong and uncomfortable and honestly I hate it. And also i grow body hair that's way more than an average person and it is really awkward and uncomfortable. Like i wanna be a women, feel like a woman and live and be seen as a women i don't want to be a guy I hate it. I can't transition cause my family is Muslim and they are really traditional and strict and would kill me if i even mention something like this and also i live in Kashmir India so it's more difficult and it's so bad if i transition and go out people would get physically violent with me possibly. So all I want is some advice on what i should do.