21F I’m ashamed of my current sex fantasies

Sorry this is written so poorly, quite frankly I’m lazy and did it through the voice feature because I typed it out and then accidentally deleted it. Hope you can still read what I’m saying.

I’m ashamed of my current sex fantasies at the moment. I also feel like a creep because they involve people in my life or not not even in my life and they have no idea about this. I just feel a bit weird. So when I watch porn I have to imagine my own plot because what’s going on and the video is underwhelming and doesn’t make me finish.

So the main one that I feel bad about is between my ex-boyfriend who I broke up with six months ago and one of his female friends, we broke up because he watched too much porn and he couldn’t keep it up so we didn’t have sex for six months and a girl has needs, also broke up because he actively didn’t tell me about friends that he has that he has done stuff with and he was actively trying to hide it. So when I watch a video of a two people, having sex and sneaking around I imagine that it’s him and his female friend that he kissed. I imagine him leaving me in middle of the night to go and secretly get rid of his boner with her and she’s like okay I’ll help you get rid of it or I imagine them having sex in the same room as me. In this situation I’ll be sat there and then they’ll be like cuddling a bit or something and then she’ll like give him head or something and I won’t see it because I’m either asleep or I’m to focus on the TV or it’s under a blanket. It makes me cum all the time.

Another fantasy I have is of an nudist family and they always walk around naked, so if I see like people naked or just walk around the house or something or even if they’re clothed I’ll be like like imagining them say they’re nudist house and that they need to take their clothes off and then they see that the male has a boner and they can’t stop themselves from having sex. Or I imagine the guy saying his boner wont go down so the daughter volunteers to help.

Another one is a piss kink so I imagine a family Road trip or something and then the daughter and son are both like I need to go to the toilet. Then the mothers like okay but just don’t make a mess and do it outside. They leave the car and go outside then the sister is like well you can’t make a mess, just piss in me I don’t want it to go everywhere and so pisses in his sister and then they start having sex and he’s like I can’t help it i need to do this now.

I also have a kink with the ex and his girlfriend and I imagine him forcing him self on her and her being like no, I don’t wanna do this we’re friends and then he’s like I can’t help it I need to release this.

Another fantasy I have as of two boys siblings or just really close friends and they take poppers the thing that makes them erect and then they’re both like we need to get rid of this and then they start rubbing their dicks together and everything until they cum, purely platonic release of an erection they just had to do.

Now I don’t know how to get rid of only having these fantasies make me finish. I even have a new boyfriend and still think about my ex and his female friend. I also did love my ex and would’ve been broken if he did cheat on me so I don’t understand why it turns me on.