Is it possible that i like girls

for context i am 15F and have grown up around a homophobic family for example i was telling my dad how vickie wasn't in the epilogue for stranger things amd he said she's probably just in hell for being a lesbian and i trace my family tree and my dad said thisbis my it's important i have kids so that i keep the bloodline going (even though i have siblings) i have always been alot more woke than them.

So of course until i was maybe 12 i was quite homophobic but

Ive never had a boyfriend a couple of guys have liked me but i get an ick unbelievably fast by imaginary things or things they actually do. dont get me wrong i use to be boy crazy but only for guys i hardly knew

There is this one girl who find absolutely beautiful but i hardly know her and its impossible to get an ick from her even when im aware she doesnt look great or is being cringey for a guy id be done by now.

Is this because i don't like her or because i do.

i don't want to be but if i am id like to know. Or am i just shy and avoident