I hate being autistic.

I can only enjoy life while I'm drunk or high. I'm unemployed, I have horrible motor skills and I can't write well. I'm obsessed with politics and I repeat the same fucking things over and over and over. Then I have to deal with self diagnosed "autism creature" tiktok liberals who lecture me on why autism is fun and quirky.

Name a smart autistic, name one, I dare you. Oh yeah, you fucking can't. No wonder autistic people are unemployed. If I wasn't autistic, I'd probably be smarter.

"You shouldn't be ashamed!" NO I FUCKING SHOULD. You cannot tell me that being lonely, stupid and depressed is fun. "neurodivergent" this "neurodivergent" that. Just fucking call me disabled at this point. I don't wanna be compared to autistic people and I don't want to be autistic.