eating at midnight outside of meal plan.

my team have been very adamant on me eating my meals only at their set times and then not going back to eat more afterwards or between the next meal/snack. they also said to make sure i don’t eat too late at night, and to leave enough time between eating and going to bed because it’s bad for me.

i just had a really big night snack at about 10:40pm which i was already feeling guilty about, and then at 12:00am i was in bed and went and ate a bunch of sugary popcorn and some gummy lollies too and now i feel so bad and hate myself. why do i have no self control. i just find it so hard sometimes to force myself to get to sleep when im thinking about food still. but then when i eat at this time i feel so guilty in the morning because i regret it. i wish i was strong enough to not binge at night and just eat at my set meal times like everyone wants me to :(