[M4F] Attracted to amputee women since I can remember

I was probably around 5 years old when I saw a woman crutching through the streets with forearm crutches so gracefully, so neatly. And it hit me, I felt a wave or a rush through me that I didn’t understand until years later in my teenage years. I watched that movie where the actress has a machine gun as a leg and that Deuce Bigalow: Male Gigolo movie where his gf removes her leg and I found them the most attractive women I’ve seen.

Life went on, had several relationships and gave up on the idea that I’d ever meet a woman like you but here I am trying through the written word since it feels impossible mathematically to meet someone like you in real-life. I tried to fight it, felt so guilty, I felt so conflicted about being attracted to something that might’ve caused you trauma or that you maybe didn’t choose.

Does this make me a monster? Am I a freak? Do you enjoy it? Is it objectifying? I want to hear your side.

Been lucky enough to have a few conversations here in Reddit but lost touch.