Ovulating makes this really hard [everything ok]

I have a very very very hard time differentiating kink and reality when I’m ovulating. Like I’m honest to god such a brain dead whore. It makes me want to do some really risky things. And like clockwork I feel so ashamed after and I hide but it’s just so hard to deny what I really want and I come back. It’s so hard to keep pretending this isn’t maybe more than a kink