Adulting even sucks when you're poor

It's hard to admit but it is truly hard when you are born to a poor family. You have no choice but to live your life for the betterness of your family. It's hard to dream about your own, because you have them and they should be prioritized first before your own because they're YOUR family. You can't even dream to runaway because when you think of your poor parents your heart just splits into many pieces. You can't even choose to die or dream to die to ease the sufferings because what about them?