Relapsed. And nothing to be gained

Couldn’t help myself and fell to temptation. I’m sick of losing so much time in my day. And how porn has influenced my perception of people. How can one be strong when these roots stem so far into my life. Been struggling with porn for so many years, and it’s been seriously messing up my brain. Making me feel dumb, frustrating how easy it is to look up triggers. Idk what else to say, need some motivation to quit. The artificial pleasure has been consuming me