What if therapy doesn’t work for me ?

30F. Been seeing a therapist for 3 months now. My therapist is really good but I’m so shy and scared when I get into her office I swear I feel like I dissociate for the entire hour and then leave. I go once a week. Today’s session was very hard because I had admitted something sensitive to her so we spoke about it and I was seriously a mess. My leg was shaking, I made zero eye contact, and my voice was shaking the entire time it was so embarrassing. She was really sweet about it and knew I was scared. So when the session ended she’s like ok my dear, you are free to leave. I swear the way I belted out was hilarious. Anyway, I realized we didn’t book another session which we normally do before I leave. I just realized now (3 hours after the session lol). I sort of don’t want to text her and bother her but idk if I should wait and see if she texts me asking if I want another appt.

I’m just thinking about how confusing therapy is like you go into a room with a stranger and tell them your deepest secrets and they work to help you but the work is hard and scary so you’re like is this even going to work. Sorry for the rambling I’m just confused. Thanks everyone.