I give up

i don’t know why in the world i’m writing this first thing in the morning but man im so done with this bs. i started out as a bright kid. always in the top five in all tests. then idek what happened i started studying in depth and boom marks dropped like crazy. did eveything i could to improve but nothing worked. haven’t scored above 450 once in any mocks. neet is barely two months away and im in such a state i dont think i can make it. and the worse part is my parents. they think i can do it mater of fact my entire family thinks im gonna get a good gmc but what do i tell them? i’m from a well off family so they’ll force me to take private college for mbbs if i dont crack neet but i dont wanna go that way. i dont wanna spend my college years living with my parents and i wanna do something on my own for once. i just want to get a good gmc and i know its out of reach at this point. who am i compete with prodigies and expect to come out on the top? sorry for the rant