Is it possible to be unable to cry? I'm tired of feeling sad and crying everyday.

(Information about me first: I'm 21 years old and male. I've been on antidepressants for years, as well as anxiety meds. I've tried therapy sessions multiple times, even going for different therapists, but all of this, the meds and the therapies seems to not work on helping with my depression state over the years).

I honestly just want a way to numb my feelings so I don't feel anything at all. I want to feel nothing, as if I'm emotionless.

I'm tired of feeling sad, depressed. I'm tired of people asking me if I'm okay or ''Why are you sad?'' (I've tried talking to people close to me, my friends and relatives, but they don't seem to understand and the conversations lead to nothing).

I'm not sure if my words are clear enough to understand what I'm implying, but I just want to be unable to cry. Whenever I feel the need to cry, I feel pathetic. I know I shouldn't feel pathetic for that. It's only natural to cry, even for a man like me. But I just don't want to anymore.

I'm not saying I want to be heartless like psychos or people who do evil. I just want to be physically unable to cry, as if my body is unable to shed any tears. That's all.

Is there any way for that?