Excited to finally see the Dr. on Monday (initial post)

Hello everyone, I'm a seldom redditor/lurker. Please forgive me if I accidentally say something incorrect.

A little about me: Currently a masc presenting, Asian, AMAB, bodybuilder (167cm, 68kg). This will probably serve as an initial post for me.

Background: Don't know if it's a common experience, but when I was in elementary school, there was a time when I wanted to be a girl instead. It only happened for a few days and then got repressed until ~high school. I grew out my hair at the time and was the same height as now, but 50kg (basically my femboy era). That stopped around 2013 when the bodybuilding started and the thoughts were repressed. There were occasional urges to crossdress starting in 2020 when we were home.

Skipping forward even more to Nov '25, my friends did my makeup because I said I was going to cosplay with her and let's just say that's when the egg cracked? (I think that's the correct term). So that brings us to the present. I was reading the DIY section and started PM+SP assuming that I could feel some effects for now.

Appointment is set for Monday. Luckily, my state is an informed consent state; assuming that I start HRT also on Monday.

Problems:

• Half of my family is transphobic (maga)
• Work is mostly the same except 1 doc and 1 nurse (If you two see this, I love you both)
• There's times when I think that I should not be going on HRT

This is getting long, so I'll stop here. But hello everyone in the community and nice to meet everyone