my life genuinely sucks rn

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i'm tired of acting like i'm ok

it almost feels like i've been masking my problems for so long that they're all crashing down on me at once.

2026 has been by far the most depressing year of my life, and we're not even 3 months in.

it almost feels like i'm nothing but an object for my family, whos only purpose is to do stuff for them.

everyone in my family always saying "you need to help your mom more' THATS ALL I EVER DO.

I SPEND PRETTY MUCH EVERY HOUR AFTER I GET HOME FROM SCHOOL CLEANING THE HOUSE, DOING THE DISHES, BRINGING STUFF TO MY MOM WHEN SHE ASKS FOR IT, CLEANING AFTER THE DOGS, ETC ETC

oh, but the second i need something, all i get is a 'iM nOt yOur mAiD"
WELL I'M NOT YOURS EITHER, BUT IT DAMN SURE FEELS LIKE IT.

genuinely my family has zero FUCKING idea how stressed I am every day.

"oh you're just a kid what could you possibly have to be stressed about" is all i ever hear, but i'm constantly stressed about school, grades, etc, and it genuinely feels like all i ever do is just to impress my family

but the second i bring home anything below a B i get lectured or yelled at.

i am physically not able to meet the high expectations that my parents set for me anymore.

"but you used to be so good at math, how could you possibly be making Cs" THATS BECAUSE THAT WAS BACK WHEN MATH WAS JUST 2+2 = FUCKING 4.

i'm the one expected to do everything all at once.

and i don't get any help

my moms a controlling piece of shit

my dad is a deadbeat alcoholic

my siblings (adults) are too old to care

and on top of all of that, i get so much shit at school.

the constant fat jokes, the bullying, the shit talk behind my back.

its exhausting

its all i ever hear

literally the second i fucking sit down at lunch

"of course you're eating"

I'M SORRY DO YOU WANT ME TO JUST STARVE???

even in class

"you take up half of the table fatass"

even when i just sit down

"woah here comes the earthquake"

like i'm genuinely trying to lose weight, but this shit doesn't make it any better

i already hate everything about my body

i hate my weight, i hate my height, i hate the way my face looks, i hate the way i walk, i hate the way i sound, i hate the size of my feet, i hate the fact that i have male anatomy (i'm mtf), literally EVERYTHING.

no need to make it even fucking worse.

all of my friends are fake and it feels like i'm being used every single day.

even the one close friend i had, i don't even feel like i can trust him anymore.

i hate my life

i was literally the unwanted child

my mom wasn't even supposed to be able to have any more kids

and thats the only reason my parents decided to fuck without a condom

and surprise

this fucking mistake was born

and thats the only reason i exist

and i genuinely wish i didn't

if my only purpose in this life is to suffer