Maintaining Friends

How do you all maintain any type of relationship? I'm not even searching for a partner anymore. Just in terms of friendships. I'm learning to isolate during luteal phase but I'm school so that is very difficult at times. During luteal phase I become very paranoid of people's intentions. It causes me to misinterpret situations that end up to me having to apologize, but the reputational damage is already done. I also become very shaky, it is hard to breathe at times while I'm speaking. Almost similar to anxiety but without the anxiousness. The brain fog is the worst. I'm unable to form proper grammatical sentences. Words and their meanings become so hard to string together and I look dumb trying to explain something I've spent a massive amount of time working on. In school, this is an issue. Peers seem to flock to someone they view as intelligent. I have no friends. If I make any, they are gone by luteal. If anyone can relate and/or has overcome this please drop a comment.