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i need it all out of my mind. why do i suddenly feel so insecure too. like i need a break from life. which is funny cause its impossible without suicide. i guess maybe sleep could work but i would still awake to all i missed. while everyone is already there i'monly here and it is also all my fault. i wish i were normal and it sucks that i was brought to watch others be happy. though i do like watching and i instead hate that everyone else is watching me to also be human