I need advice

Hi, I want to ask you for advice. I know this sounds crazy, but I don't know who I am. I have a rather complicated situation, I am 17 years old, I am a woman by birth, but I don’t feel that way or I don’t feel that way completely. From an early age, I felt uncomfortable when someone, particularly my traditional parents, pushed me into the confines of "femininity." As I got older, I started experimenting and searching for myself, which is why, out of curiosity and fun, I created male accounts for myself on social media. And... for some reason, when I was treated like a man, I felt more confident! I like it! I feel I'm in my own skin. However, this does not happen all the time. I'm changing between a woman and a man and I can't decide. My question is: could this all just be a teenage hiatus, a trend? And if not, am I non-binary? and what is right the name for my situation?

(I am from Russia, my whole family is traditional and they are openly homophobic and I am sincerely worried and anxious about the fact that I feel different from everyone else. Just tell me everything will be okay, I'm panicking....) 😮‍💨