I hope this is cancer

Found a strange mole and the first thought I had was "Please let this be terminal cancer" Lmao how sick are we to have these kinds of thoughts.

i used to row and the guy who gave us classes was telling me and some other guy how he saw someone strapped with weights jump in the river to try take his life, the other guy just said "I don't understand why someone would ever even think that". This was like 10 years ago. Its just surreal to think a lot of people dont go through this, they don't look at a mole and think let this be cancer please