Ghosted my doc, going again tomorrow

I got diagnosed with ocd in late 2024, tried medication for a while it worked in a way, made me feel better but I stopped them because I was in a relationship and was getting emotional static? In a way. But since a last couple months my anxiety has been getting worse and worse and I want to go back but I am afraid what is he going to say? What is he going to think of me? And all.