Hi everyone, I wanted to share my experience after my initial curiosity about this substance.

I got some papers and took a quarter of a paper one evening. I chilled in bed, listened to music, and was feeling inside the music. The patterns were very stimulating, and it satisfied my brain to see patterns I couldn’t describe.

Fast forward to yesterday night, I took the remaining three-quarters of the original paper.

The setting was a housewarming party for a friend. After socializing and drinking, we decided to go to a club. I took a whiff of speed to get us there and waited in line for about an hour.

We made it to the club, and I took a quick whiff of MDMA. Then, I dropped the three-quarters of a tab.

I went to the dance floor, listening to some good tunes with a nice bass boost, low ambient light, and waited for the effects to hit.

As the effects started, I became less present. I could feel my ego dissolving in waves. Sometimes, I could feel the touch and bumping of people in the crowd, so I decided to take a break, walk around, go to the smoking room, and so on.

The emotions came in waves, and then the patterns started to arise.

I remember being in a couch area and seeing a folded tent hanging from the ceiling. It was moving and waving, and it was incredible.

My friends told me to go back and reach them, so I went back to the dance floor and danced a little bit. The waves were hitting, causing some dissociation, visual distortions, and waves on people’s faces. Dots appeared and disappeared on the casings of the club lights. It was surreal, but I wasn’t always feeling present.

Especially when I was sitting down, I wasn’t sure if I was sleeping or what. It was hard to keep track of time. As a trick, I used my phone’s stopwatch as soon as I dropped the tab in my mouth.

The night went on, and I felt in and out of the crowd, walking around, and exploring the club’s liminal space, which was designed for people who were high.

Around 7:30 AM, the sun peeked over the horizon, marking the end of my night. I had planned to cycle during the sunrise, but when I got to the metro station, I decided to take the train home instead. The ride took about 30 minutes.

As I settled into the metro, I was captivated by the view outside the window. The buildings, roads, and sunrise seemed to dance together, creating a mesmerizing pattern. The Dutch architecture was striking, and I couldn’t help but wonder if architects have a special talent for designing such captivating patterns. Maybe the best designs come from people who experience altered states of consciousness, like LSD, and then create the standard for what makes a visually appealing pattern.

When I got to my station, I got off the train and cycled the last 5 minutes home. The water in the quiet canals rippled, creating a surreal and trippy atmosphere.

Once home, I lit a joint on my balcony and watched as the smoke blended with the clouds in the sky. Then, I went to sleep, waking up with a sense of hunger and a radiant afterglow in my eyes. It had been days since I had seen the sun, and its brightness and warmth felt incredibly rejuvenating.

Overall, the experience was wonderful, but I couldn’t help but feel a sense of longing for greater presence and better interactions with others. I had always wanted to be more social, but I realized that the overwhelming nature of the experience made it hard to communicate effectively.

I’m planning to try it again after my initial resistance fades. I’m thinking of doing it in a more solitary and comfortable setting, where I can fully immerse myself in the experience without feeling overwhelmed.

Here are some pics of the ride home 

First time experience