Do you feel like most people are not saying anything?

I don’t know, I don’t like people, and I think most of them are a waste of my time and aren’t really saying anything. Yet at the same time, I’m upset that I cannot connect with anyone.

Now let me specify that last part. I think I really just want to be able to connect with the opposite sex (women) better and eventually have a girlfriend that I deeply connect with. That’s the end goal, but I don’t see how that’s going to happen if every time a human talks to me when I’m outside, I get slightly grumpy for a millisecond, then immediately mask and act extremely polite and caring about what they have to say.

But in reality, I’m irritated that they’re interrupting my audiobook, song, or train of thought. Because in my head, most people aren’t saying shit worth my time hearing. If it’s not about the MCU, Netflix versus Paramount, AI, Israel bending the U.S. over a table, or the latest thing trending online, then it’s probably nonsense (aka small talk).

And I wish I didn’t have this irritability toward nonsense talk or small talk, but I do.

Can anyone relate to this at all? If yes, how do you deal with it?