I genuinely want answers or an explanation to why I’ve done this.

Whenever I was younger I’d force myself to hallucinate, I’d point out corners and say I saw things when in reality I didn’t and I’d just force myself to believe that I saw something.

I’d play victim in situations, I was a compulsive liar and would fabricate stories to make myself sound better in situations.

I remember that I would dramatize my feelings or almost want to have trauma or want to have issues.

I would very often lie or exaggerate symptoms that I was experiencing. Just in general actions like this.

I wanted to be a helpless victim of sorts or something.

I am reaching out because in recent years I’ve discovered that I may be autistic but I’m heavily doubting it from all of these actions before.

Please let me know if you need more context.

I wonder often if this was just due to social media but I’m unsure